Good morning everyone.
I officially resumed my jogging this week. I’ve gone every day this week. Since we moved here a month ago, I have gotten lax at going. I’m determined to get back at it. I am sooooo out of shape! As I sit here gasping for every breath, I find it amazing that this does actually make me feel better. I can see some difference. It does get easier each day and I think, just maybe there might be a remote chance that my “backside” giggles a little less — That fact on it’s own makes it all worth it. J
I have a secret goal. Some day I’d like to run a marathon. As hard as it is right now, I really do enjoy the jogging. It gives me energy and the alone time gives me a chance to clear my mind. Running a marathon seems like a lofty goal, given my stamina and the distance I can run at this moment. But, I think I can eventually do it. I’m pretty stubborn. Now that my goal is in writing, I’ll have to stick to it!! (Or, maybe no one will read this and I can forget I ever wrote it, LOL)
It’s back to the working world for me in a week. I’ve been off with my kids since October, so I have mixed emotions about going back. What is it in a woman that instills this sense of guilt, no matter what we do? I’ve done the stay-at-home mom thing twice in the last 8 years. I love to work and am successful when I do it, but I do enjoy the time with my children. It never fails that I end up feeling like I’m not doing enough if I stay at home.
A few months ago, a working friend joined another mom and I for pizza with the children. “So this is what stay-at-home moms do every day,” she said to both of us with a serious look on her face. I wanted to scream. As career-minded and as much of a workaholic as I am, I must admit staying home with my two children is some of the hardest work I have ever done. I hate feeling like I have to explain my reasoning every time I tell someone I stay at home. I’m sure her comment was innocent, so I did spare her the run-down of my list.
I also feel guilty for going back to work. I know that as long as we provide a nurturing home for our children and spend quality off time with them, they’ll be fine. But I still can’t help feeling like they are getting the short-end of the stick. My daughter has survived many years of me working and I have many wonderful working friends who have great kids. I know it will be just fine. My job will only be 30 hours a week so it shouldn’t be a bad transition and the extra money will be a tremendous help.
Hope everyone has a great day.